I'm happy today, and it's simply because:

1.  Our group project mentor complimented on the good job of the research we've done, "the information is more than enough, well done," causing the unsatisfied feelings SooYing and I had before this due to some irresponsible and childish attitudes of other group members just vanished.

Lesson learnt: Simple phrases/words can indeed create completely different impact.

2.  I got to study in my "hole" in the library, with my dearest behind me. Always feel so safe in that "hole" of mine, it's like my territory and I'm protected against any harmful occassions, haha. I called it "hole" 'cause it really seems like a site territorial of mine - anteriorly the enclosed study table, posteriorly the book rack, laterally on the right it's the glass and wall whereas on the left it's the "opening" to my study hole. Oh, so safe.

"Hey, you coming? Am studying in your hole right now."

"HEY YOU HOLE STEALER! WHY DID YOU STEAL MY HOLE?!"

"Hmmm, what hole yeah dear?"

LOL. If you get what I mean. *giggles*

Lesson learnt: The hole doesn't only provide a good study environment - focus span near to 90% there; but we discovered something today - it is a safe place, for couples, precisely. Well, if you get what I mean again. *laughs*

3. As I walked back to the hostel, the breeze upon me makes me smile. The chirping of the flock of birds which flew so swiftly across me that I almost bang into one of them; the gigglings from the girls walking towards me; the students, who are like me, carrying books heading back towards the hostel; the very young trees that were swinging softly - all the sudden they appear to be such a beautiful picture to me. I was walking back with the song "You Raise Me Up" on my walkman after kissing goodbye with dearest, and it appeals to me that I'm so contented about everything. Started to embrace the beauty of everything around me. Am a lucky girl to have just enough in Life. I get to study what I've always wanted, get to realise dreams and will become someone I desire, get the perfect one one can ever dream of, get life-long friends, companions, teachers, a good health at least for now, perfect roommates and housemates, perfect B1B house which is so damn near to my class, get to see cadavers every Friday XP and most of all, a wonderful family who always lecture you because they care.

Lesson learnt: Be appreciative, that happiness last you a long time. =)

4.  I studied for entrepreneurship exam for waste. LOL. Don't ask me why I categorise that as reason why I'm happy, because I just find no reason to be sad over it. Haha.

Lesson learnt: Logical mind helps.

5.  We ate Loh Mee, Ice Kacang, Rice with Fried Hotdog and Chicken. Talked about our coming Christmas plan. Buffet here we come!

Lesson learnt: Having larger circle of friends = easier job for cutting queue.

6.  Somehow I decided to let go off a little today - meaning, being a little wild and crazy. Guess I've been suppressed for quite some time that I've just decided to throw that good girl away for once. So I was talking like I never talked before, blabbering and acting a little stupid. I sounded like I was drunk, Haha. Sudden adrenaline rush, I presume. But I felt happy! Haha.

Lesson learnt: Never do that in front of your loved one. It worries them.

7.  I'm going to bed sooooooooon! ^^

Reason for not updating LaFinas for long?

Was too afraid to see what I've written. Am afraid to be reminded of the pain.

Haha. Don't worry, I promise you LaFinas, that I'd come here more often and update as frequent as possible.

It's the first week of the second module. Promised myself to switch a healthier habit. Hehee.

Last week was really what I needed, I guess.

There is time for me to recollect memories of the past, incorporate them into the present to figure the standing I'm on right now. Sometimes, you know, it's really good to reminisce about the past. It makes you realise your strengths as well as mistakes, thus shaping you into a better individual for a better future. I've probably done quite a number of silly things before, things which would make me smile and laugh at the naivety I once possessed, even till now. Nonetheless I'm pretty sure that I've done something which I am very proud of.

Haha. To cut the story short. Been through 5 years of naive high school times. That was quite a first turning point in my life. Known the bestest friends one can ever get in life. Form 2 I guess, was pretty much a big turning point for me. Changed from an introvert to rather an extrovert, sometimes too hyper I guess. But am proud of myself that way. I know I was happy, and the things we did, weren't superficial kinda stuffs. Never knew there are sweeter priorities in life, and never knew having to experiencing different 'firsts' with a group of very good friends can be so satisfying. They taught me that. That is why, I've always treasured these people and never would want an end to our friendship. Hah. I believe we will not come to that point.

Ah. The sweet old times.

Another turning point of the nineteen years of life will be when I was seventeen. That one year, I've learnt and experienced more than what I could have done so in my past sixteen years. I learnt to do things on my own, to establish new friendsips and create bonds - these people, once again made a huge impact on my life.

One thing I'm very sure of, is that I am indeed a very lucky person.

I realised at every point of my life, God's always given me what I needed the most. And I am very, very grateful for that.

He knew I was weak and had lost my focus. I was destined to go to Taiwan for a year, and learnt from other people's stories, the determination in those people, the will to achieve their dreams. They really, inspired me a lot. And at that point, I knew exactly what I wanted to do.

I may have failed to continue my battle there, but I know that I am very proud of myself. Have done things which I never thought I am capable of. And one thing, the friendship we've established we knew they weren't on-the-surface kinda thing. Very lucky that a bunch of people whom just get together and with a click, the bond is deeper than we thought. For now it might seemed that we aren't as close anymore but at least we know that one year means more than anything to us.

You know, the heart has been so out of balance before this year. Especially throughout high school years and last year. Once again, I was lost. Last year was probably the toughest I had to deal with the heart. It seemed that the mind was pretty much negative, couldn't help but only to digest negative stuffs in, causing so much dissatisfaction in the heart, etc etc. Grades were good, have learnt from the previous year and was very focused.

And once again, I was blessed abundantly - with good friendships.

Really grateful.

And a peaceful mind marked the start of this year. I do not know why but it seems that I've quite forgotten about how I used to feel. Haha. Taught in a primary school, SJK C Tun Tan Cheng Lock. Praises from the parents as well as the teachers proved to me that I've done a good job. "Your parents should be very proud of you. Many parents as well as teachers I've known of sing praises of you." "My daughter really favours you and looks up to you, like a role model kind of thing, you know." Haha. Six months of sweat and sorethroat and complains at times lol, is creating so much of memories to me and I really, really miss them a lot at times. Dying to see them and know how they are doing. I'd seen them for a certain period and that was their cutest, I know I'd be pretty shocked to find out how they have grown, in the future. But I know I'd be very proud of each and everyone of them.

Really miss them! My Heather, H'ng Kang, Yi Xin, Si Kai, etc. Oh.

July was another turning point of the life. Went on trips with friends, bid farewells to bestties, ah. You know this year's farewells, somehow it seemed like 'oh this is it.' You know, like right now, yes, at this very moment, we are parting each other and the goodbyes felt like forever. Like, we are so seriously gonna embark on our very OWN journey and probably living very different lives in the future. Each of us are going to find our priorities in life, on a quest to search for the call in our life. And this is not going to happen if we are still marching on the ground, not wanting to be separated from each other. We somehow managed to sort the best pathway for us at the moment. And walk it. See how we go on. Though being on different continents each of us now, the bonds we've shared however, will remain intact, this I'm sure.  

July 7 marked something wonderful in my life. And the date when you held my hand, I'd never forget it for life. August 16 2009. Was near to 3pm I guess. Haha. Venue: G2000 in Queensbay, Penang.

I treasure every single detail and time we're spending together. Never in my life I felt that life's so wonderfully stable, that I have enough and just contented in life.

You're really, the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Really grateful.

=)